Lady J and I met for coffee recently. We talked about a lot of things as we caught up, and as always, the topic of conversation turned to kink. It’s been more than a year since our play relationship ended, but Lady J has pointed out on more than one occasion that she will always have too much blackmail leverage for me to ever really stop being her bitch. I updated her on my relative lack of kink activity of late and how I’ve hungered of late for exposure and humiliation. I told her about a pro-Domme who follows me on Twitter and recently decided to grab a handful of my photos to add to her wall of shame just because she could … and of other friends and occasional strangers who have come across my photos/videos (with my identity totally unprotected) through various means and reposted/shared those photos for their own friends/followers to enjoy.
I could see the wheels turning in Lady J’s mind. She’d mentioned earlier in our conversation that she’d been feeling particularly “toppy” lately, and an idea was clearly developing. She told me to estimate how many places my pics/vids are publicly accessible online. I didn’t know, but I was sure the number was too high for me to feel safe. She laughed, and then she gave me an assignment — to gather the links to as many of those sites as I could and post them all here.
I weakly protested that anybody would be able to click through and everything … that I’d be completely exposed and at risk for anybody to discover. That wasn’t her problem. At all. And she was delighted rather than sympathetic at the way that made me squirm.
Lady J gave me some time to gather this list, though she used the days in between to share both one of my most humiliating posts from the days during which we played and a publicly posted picture of me with no measures taken to hide my face and, in fact, tags added to help people make connections to who I really am. If Lady J is in a mood lately to toy with me, that’s a total turn-on, but I could be so, so screwed.
Still, without further delay, here they are … 55 links to web sites, public Facebook pages, public posts by individuals on Facebook and public Twitter posts. I can’t believe I’m really posting this list, but the alternative — disobeying a direct order fro Lady J — is not an option.